It was just last fall when I dropped him off for that first day. When I watched him turn away from me and embark on an experience that was completely separate from me. I remember the anxiety, fear, and the massive lump in my throat like it was yesterday. I was overcome with uncertainty.
What I didn’t know then that I know now is that Kindergarten was just what he needed. That school was a perfect fit for him. That sometimes, even though it hurts. . . letting go is just right.
Charlie has grown this year. He’s become more. . . Charlie.
I like who Charlie is.
Kindergarten. . . Check. First Grade? Bring it on.
Charlie, I am so proud of you.
“There has never been a day when I have not been proud of you, I said to my son, though some days I’m louder about other stuff so it’s easy to miss that.” -Story People
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*I reserve the right to have an emotional break down when First Grade drop off is an actuality. In fact, I reserve that for each of my children and for each life transition. What can I say, I know they are capable. . . but I am still me.
it truly does feel like JUST yesterday, doesn't it? all that uncertainty over what was best, what would happen, if you should pick choice A, B, or C or make a choice D?! oh, friend. you've let him spread him wings, and i'm proud of him and proud of you! please keep taking notes so that i can count on your for advice many years from now.
-Miss
Awww, it's such a mix of emotions, right? So excited and proud, yet so emotional over them growing up. I love your addendum. 😉
I can't believe that we're talking about first grade next year.
That is one beautiful baby boy you have.
They're always babies, no?
Amen!
My kids are all in their adult years now, and I still have an emotional breakdown at each new step;-) You have the right to do that as a Mom for sure:-)
I was really nervoous about sending Hannah to kindergarten this year too. And then midway through the year, I voiced my initial concerns to her teacher at a conference; and she said "Hannah was absolutely ready for school, she's doing great!" Its hard to let go. I think sometimes our kids are capable of way more than we think but sometimes we just find it so hard to let go/make the "right" decision/be at peace. After all, we are the MOMS here! These are our babies!! But they're not so much. They are growing into beautiful children who will have an amazing impact on the world around them. And Hannah has six days left so I don't have to think about first grade just yet. 🙂 Love you friend.